Before I got “fired” or “laid off” I had been looking for a job. I had been looking for a job, on and off, for a year. The last five years was not a walk in the park. Many times I wanted to quit. A few of those times, my boss or owner knew. I was persuaded to stay and ride out the storms. I had progressively made more money than I ever have, but each day I did not feel like it was worth the struggle of dissatisfaction. The dissatisfaction was due to the lack of value of work I would do. My job was to help run things smoothly and seamlessly from production to accounting. My job was not to be well-liked because I was the problem finder and solution creator. No one enjoys being told how to do their job by someone that does not do their job. I actually liked this job because I liked helping and giving solutions to headaches. I imagined myself to be a bit peacemaker in the long run; however, as much as my boss knew that this job needed to be done and wanted me to do it, he/they did not support the work that I did. It was not my job to implement every solution, but to help all parties understand new formats. It was not my job to enforce and control the solution. Eventually, things would fall apart &/or not amount to anything. I would spend weeks and months planning and thinking of these solutions and it would crumble so quickly. My work was not particularly supported and it was a never-ending cycle. I realize this could be read as bit of a spoiled brat mentality, but if you do have to work majority of your life, shouldn’t you find something that does not make you hate life? Eventually, I came to terms with my job/company and knew that I had to look for different opportunities.
I had worked for a small company and thought many of the problems I faced were “small company problems.” I wanted to be a bit more diligent and particular when choosing my next employer and had sought out large corporations. Although the processes were a lot longer and detailed I had been confident in terms of what I could offer. There was one company I had interviewed for and was rejected four times. I had gone through 4 different positions and each time I did not get a job, the manager that had interviewed me referenced me to a different department. I did not mind this either because I was not quite set on what type of position I should be seeking. I had the mentality of “getting my foot in the door” and growing into this company. This same experience happened for an international corporation. Needless to say, these interviews itself took months. At first these referrals were small wins. I thought these referrals were the way to find a great boss to work with.
But that’s not what happened.
“We like you, but not enough to hire you.”
Til next time,
an unemployed millennial